Whenever I look back at my life, every year has been so different. It's like a book of chapters from every genre, a manic manifesto. I see growth for sure, but I also see what my old mentor Paul called my dance of two steps forward one step back. I jump into things head first and then I retreat. I push myself way out of my comfort zone, and then I find myself back in familiar patterns. I always think the worst is behind me, and dear god I hope it is, but I'm also aware that unless I'm continuously working toward goals and taking care of myself, one misstep could send me spiraling. We all have darkness inside of us. I've chosen to only put out good vibes, but I never want to give the impression that my life is all sunshine and rainbows.
When I'm feeling really low, instead of projecting that out into the world, I put on a happy face and try to keep smiling. I mean that literally. Next time you’re angry or sad, force yourself to smile. It’s hard to be angry when you have a shit eating grin on your stupid face. Force some belly laughter and you might find it turning into real laughter. At the very least, it will take your mind off the darkness for a even a moment, and it’s probably better than kicking and screaming. Although sometimes that’s necessary too. 😃
Whatever it is you focus your energy on (what you want, or what you don't want) that is what you'll receive. The universe wants to give you what you're obsessing about, for better or worse. I believe that we become whatever we tell ourselves we are, so we have to be mindful what we are telling ourselves.
So today I'm telling myself all the things I want to always be true. I'm happy. I'm healthy. I'm successful. I'm living up to my potential. I'm capable. I'm growing. I'm strong. I'm grateful. Everything will be ok ❤️